This summer has been anything but wonderful.
I love my fellowship and the people I have met ... but I feel like the lone Christian in my program.
I often feel uneasy when speaking with my roommate about certain issues. Last night frustrated me, and I let my frustration show.
For starters, she condemned the whole concept behind missionaries. When I tried to explain to her that some have good intentions and are there to help people, she asked me if it is necessary to show your faith while on a mission trip ... as if it could or should be hidden! I said there is a distinct difference between showing and proselytizing. It is one thing to walk in and say, "Hi, I am so-and-so, and I will be your Christian missionary for the week. Let's start converting!" It is another thing to be spotted praying or even to engage in prayer with an individual. She didn't understand though ...
She then started to talk about sex and menstruation. She wants to have a "special talk" with the girls in the program next week. I almost became physically ill during this discussion. I wanted to yell out, "No! I don't want to know about alternative menstruation products or sex toys or whatever! Just let me be!" Instead, I played with my phone during this conversation. All I wanted to do was read the Bible and go to bed. Obviously, I was bothered by the whole conversation. She caught on and apologized.
I know Sociology is one of the most liberal disciplines in the social sciences. I cannot do this for the rest of my life. I cannot work with these people. I need to be in a Christian community of some sort ... or at least be with more like-minded individuals (Christian or non-Christian)!
Have you ever felt like the lone Christian before, desperately trying to hold onto your ideals while not going insane?
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